Way Too Much Change

Well now I finally have updates for you guys. Unfortunately none of them are good.

First, what I think is most important, though I think I'm the only one: Eyeball is still head up and really needs to flip by the 16th or we need to make a decision on whether to try an external version to turn it, which could result in an emergency c-section, or wait and see if it turns on its own and if it doesn't (and the doctor doesn't think it will), have a scheduled c-section. I really, really, really do not want to have a c-section but the version only has like a 50% success rate and I'm not sure it would be worth it if there's a chance of having to have an emergency c-section. I don't think I'd like going into the hospital for that procedure and not knowing if I'll be leaving the hospital with a baby; even if it's only three weeks early. I don't know. Hopefully Eye flips by itself in the next two weeks and I won't have to keep worrying about it.

Next stupid stressful change is that we have to move at the end of April/beginning of May because Matt accepted a job offer at the place where he's working down there right now and will be starting May 1st. I can't say it enough that I hate it in the cities and I think up here is a much better place to raise a child. But I really get very little say in the matter. I know Matt can't stay working painting up here when he may get laid off every winter. It's just stressful because I don't think there's enough time to smoothly or even remotely smoothly plan on having a baby, packing, figuring out what to do with the house we only bought a year and three days ago, and moving with two dogs, a one and a half month old, and probably while Matt is going back and forth from down there where I will be responsible to do everything. Then unpacking and trying to set up the house by myself as well, with a one and a half month old and two dogs that have turned into the worst dogs I've ever known over the last month because of all the changes. And more changes probably won't help. Not to mention just everyday living down there will be stressful by itself.

All I know is I will find a way to go see Tim in July. Alone. So I can regain some sanity.